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Honey, if you only knew

how it feels when the blood runs through

and it boils with 100 degrees or more.

But I'm feeling insecure

Honey, if you only saw

how much dust comes out of my scars

and you know it isn't smart

to hurt me more since they're on my heart..

I'm walking through the rain

I hope it'll wash away my shame

It'll wash away the lies I told

I feel that I am turning cold (But I don't want that)

Help me understand

how could I cause such pain?

By hurting you I hurt myself

Don't tell me it's too late..

Honey, I am being true

I know you're not that cruel

I know you have a heart of gold

Please do not make mine cold..

I'm feeling way too tired

so I'm walking through the fire

I  take a breath and breathe the flames

I hope they'll  burn away my pain

And I'm not joking

I might as well be frozen

Only your warm heart will make mine beat again..

The truth..

When we met I was desperate for love

I guess that's why you weren't enough

and that's why I took you for granted

I didn't think it would turn out complicated

You went away to a far-away land

I always knew that I wouldn't stand it

I waited for you six long months

but suddenly my world turned around

I fell for a girl with a gorgeous smile

I swear there was sunshine in her eyes

and in her voice I heard butterflies

and that's when I knew it's time to say goodbye to you

Then I told you - I need time to think

and finally our ship started to sink

you told me I'm an ass and a liar

I'm sorry for the times I made you cry

I'm sorry that we tried

I'm sorry that I lied

but I'm not sorry that I did what I wanted

I'm not sorry that we split

I'm not sorry I was a bitch

I'm not sorry that I fell for real this time